I....Can't....Breathe.....

Oh my. Can I please have a breath of air??? Can I have some time to be??? Things have been so hectic since school has started. It seems as though I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off. A typical day goes something like this:: Get up at 6:00 am., get ready for work, get the kids up at 6:50 and ready for school, eat breakfast (the kids), pick up my nieces for school, drop kids at school at 7:45, go home, frantically get Kaylee ready for school, eat breakfast, run errands, get Kaylee to school by 10:45, then I go to work from 11-2:30, rush home ( I get 10 minutes to change before the kids get home) then do all the frantic things around the house that need to be done ( you know, homework, laundry, cleaning). I just can't seem to get my time management set. I'm so used to being home and getting the things done that need to be done that I am completely wearing myself out trying to survive. I'm sure it will be easier???!!! Ugh.

School Starts Tomorrow.

Today we "Meet the teacher" at the kids' school. My babies are growing up before my eyes. I guess that means I'm getting older too!!! I also start up on my internship tomorrow. Not sure how many hours I'll get in due to school starting and me trying to adjust to an "empty nest". Good thing I have internship to keep me busy. I'm sure the kids will do absolutly fine. Me, on the other hand, I'll just have to keep busy so I don't think about it too much.

School's Almost Here!!

Can it be? Could school be starting in a week? Is my baby girl starting Kindergarten already? Is my big boy a 2nd grader? The realization that my youngest is starting school is slowly starting to hit. I know that the moment we walk down those hallowed halls on Tuesday to meet her teacher, with her big backpack on her back and that grin on her face, it will hit me!! It's so hard to believe it's almost here. Not only will she start her first day of school, but I will start my LAST year of school. I can't believe I will be graduating in nine short months. It seems as though this journey has taken a lifetime, yet I can't believe it's gone so quick. I am excited to start my year of internship and look forward to being involved in the lives of my students.

It's getting ready time!

Alas, it is that time of the year when we start to get ready for school....all of us. The kids start in two weeks and I start in three, but the process starts now. Putting kids to bed earlier so they can get up earlier....getting internship all in order, getting my collaborative project approved, printing proof of insurance so I can counsel students and on and on it goes. I am ready to get back into the swing of a "normal" routine. It should be intersting with BOTH kids in soccer this fall. We shall see.!!

Say What Part 2

God still continues to work in very mysterious ways. If anything I've learned how to wait on the Lord, put my trust in the Lord and realize how much control of my life I'm not giving to the Lord. This whole job thing and internship deal has been (and still is) a lesson on obedience, trust and control (or lack there of). Not getting the job threw me for a loop because I've never been turned down for a job. This was rather humbling and in my inferior wisdom I saw that, yes, God does know better than me what is best for our lives. Then for internship, I thought I might have solid daycare two mornings a week so I could put in two full days and three half days. This would allow me to graduate with 1000 hours so I could also get my license as a counselor, but alas, God once again showed me HE is in CONTROL and not me!! My daycare fell threw and now I will only be interning 5 half days which will leave me with about 860 hours which is just enough to graduate with my school counselor certificate, but no license. I am finding that THIS IS COMPLETELY OKAY even though it was not MY plan or will, it is GOD'S and that is what matters. I feel at peace with everything, not anxious or wanting, but knowing that God will complete the work HE has started and not leave it void. God is good all the time and praise the Lord for that. SO, all this to say that our ways are not HIS ways and God knows what's best even if we try to tell Him it's not. I'm learning to give control to God and let Him lead my life instead of the other way around. Hard lesson to learn.

God know what's best

Okay, after a very anxiety filled week waiting for a job interview and then waiting for that phone call, God has made it very clear to me that He ALWAYS know what's best for me and my family. I was all jung ho about a paid internship because it would be a great opportunity and bring in some money. But on the day that I was to receive that phone call about whether or not I was to get the job, I started doubting if it was the right thing. I told God that if this job was going to make me just a huge mess and all that I didn't want it. In fact, I was going to just tell them no because I wasn't sure I was ready to be a full time working mom. Well, that call came at 10:30 yesterday morning and God heard my plea. I think He knew that I would not have the strength to turn the job down, so He brought someone with more experience than me to take that job. PRAISE THE LORD. On the way home from my hair cut, I broke down because I was so relieved that I didn't have to take the job. I was worried about my daughter and how she would handle me working and putting her in daycare. God told me NO and I am so thankful. Next year I will reapply for that job and others when the timing is much better. I'm so grateful that an AWESOME GOD is in control.