Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Busy, busy, busy bee
Boy, life seems to not stop even for the weary. We had a lot going on these last few weeks. I had an MRI (which turned out to the normal), an extended family member passed away from cancer, and then trying to help everyone out so things could get down. Needless to say, I was spent and wasn't able to give anymore to anyone...not even my family. I could feel myself starting to get depressed, which bothered me. I'm a counselor...I shouldn't be getting depressed, or have a hard time dealing with issues in my life. If I felt that way, then what good was I as a counselor?? Well, fortunately my best friend reminded me that it's okay to feel that way and that I could ask for help. So.......I had a big cry fest and puking session with my husband. I got everything out about how I was feeling depressed (due to being in pain all the time), felt like a failure as a mom and wife and so on....That night I slept the best that I have slept in weeks. I feel a bit renewed and able to handle what comes my way. I also realize that even though I am a counselor, I am human and experience human emotions. I have trauma in my life just like everyone else. It's okay to break down and cry and ask for help...even as a counselor. That's what makes me a healthier counselor and a better guide to those who seek my help. SO thank you JAM and SB for all you've helped me with. I love you.
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Hey, my friend. You so totally ROCK! You are struggling with so much these days, but God is shaping you, molding you into the woman He would have you be. He will use you to make a difference for eternity and that is the greatest good! Love you!!
it's liberating to let it out, isn't it? i mean, life is tough and many times we do have to suck it up to keep going...but sometimes we need to let it out, to release the pressure in order for clarity to come, and sanity to return. bless you my friend for giving so much of yourself...don't forget though, that in order to have something to give ya gotta be at terms with how you yourself are doing amidst it all. its in that moment that God reveals and brings balance...and others are there for you too. that's the blessing of family and friends (those that surround us and cover us with love and prayer, a listening ear and a warm gentle hug). even counselors need a shoulder to lean on. it's okay.
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